I have always imagined that Paradise will be some kind of library. -Jorge Luis Borges
I have recently been thinking about what could make me live a happier life. Health. Hobbies. Passions. All of which I have been lacking for a long time now. Work. Stress. Fatigue. I have plenty of those. If anyone wants some, just let me know. I am more than willing to share.
After reevaluating my current lifestyle I realized my issue. I allowed my day job to stress me out long after I am off the clock. Instead of being productive and filling my free time with health, hobbies and passions, I sit in a pile of stress. Too tired from it all to move and think so I eat and watch TV. Enough it enough!
The first solution I came up with was obviously to quit the day job. No one should stay anywhere they are unhappy. It seemed like a sound plan. Quit and spend some time on all the happy things in life. Soon that idea started to stress me out as well. A major flaw in my plan. What will fund all the happy things in life?
Savings. Yes, its there for me in case of situations like this but eventually it will run dry. Especially if I mess up budgeting or I have some sort of expensive emergency. I can’t possibly be happy when I’m worried about how I’m going to pay the bills.
The second solution: keep the day job. It sounds awful. It is definitely stressful. But, I can always find a different day job. A different environment. And until then, I’ll have to stay on.
But what about improving my everyday happiness? How can I keep the stressful day job, deal with a even more stressful job market and remain positive, productive and happy?
Habits. I have a lot of bad ones. Actually, all I have are bad habits. Self discipline. I lack it. That’s why I’m in the boat that I am in. A boat without a paddle. Aimlessly drifting through the currents. I know what I need to do.
I need to fall in love with all of my passions again.
Books. Whenever I walk past a bookstore I take in a huge whiff of the air. Have you ever really stopped to smell a book? There is something about ink printed on paper that just calms my soul. I used to read all the time. I lost that habit somewhere. I dropped it and forgot to pick it back up. I love stories. Watching TV is just an easier way to dissolve stories. But actually holding a physical book does something magical.
Health. There was once a time when I was pretty active. I did sports. Spent time outside and just had fun breaking a sweat. I recently joined a gym and it feels so good to be doing something active again. There have been some extra stressful days at work and all I kept saying to myself was, “Don’t worry. It’ll be over soon. And you can go to the gym.” This is big for me. I’m a pretty lazy girl and would definitely prefer to lay in bed with a long book but that can late until later.
Passions. Hobbies. What am I passionate about? Besides reading, what are my hobbies? Writing. I’m a writer. Fun fact, I have a first draft of a book and started the second draft not too long ago. I also just started getting into hand lettering. It’s therapeutic and a new way for me to express myself.
The plan. Work on self discipline to form good habits and to incorporate my hobbies and passions into everyday life. I vow not to let my current day job, or any future day job I may have, stress me out and ruin the rest of the day.
In the past, I had tired relaunches of this blog. I tried some different themes and different types of posts. I have decided to use this platform to document my progress. I will share writing samples, hand lettering projects, and pretty much anything else I feel like talking about.
I am Sam Scham. And this is my blog. My writing. My life.